Never Simple. Never Easy.

"people are people and we always change our mind, but its killing me to see you go after all this time, and we know its never simple, never easy, never a clean break, no ones here to save me your the only thing i know, like the back of my hand."

-Breathe - Taylor Swift

bleh i just really need to vent on to things today, the first one is for myself and the secound one is for everyone else. I've always been known to be the happiest, loudest and at times probably the most giggly person ever. and about zero people in my life know who i really am. i dont share any of my hopes and dreams with anyone. not even my best friend knows anything about me. sure they know i like Taylor swift, and to sing, and laugh and stuff, but im not really like that...thats how i used to be. Well to be completely honest thats how i am 75 percent of the time but the other 25 im gazing off into the distance or sumthin. thats not me being bored. thats me tryna think of something to make me feel better cuz im tired..and i dont think anybodies ever really noticed but i mouth the words to songs ALOT. even sometimes when i dont have an Ipod on. thats me sad too. nobody ever really notices the bad stuff in life only the good stuff. and dont get me wrong, im a mad happy person, when i laugh im REALLY laughing (and i laugh ALOT) but when im sad im really sad and none of my friends ever wanna hear that part. i feel like i have no friends who understand me. one of them completely ditched me for other people. the other one picks sides alot. the other ones always favors a different friend and treats me very meanly and mocks me TOO muchh. another is rude. and my sammy left me for a whole bunch of strangers she barely knew. im not sayin im the perfect friend, bcuz im not. but i always try to be, i always try and be a good person even if it doesnt work out all the way. i feel like i havent had a good real friend since melissa, marijke and mikey. but even they didnt know me all the way.

and the secound subject lol...is about me kinda too. but for somereason my appearence and my body lately have become everybodies priority and i just kinda wanna politely say BACK OFF its my body and if i wanted to be a fat pig then i would be so fuck everyone whos been like awh clarice you want a burger? and ahh! your so skinny or mocking me cuzza my size. i LOVE being skinny and i love being me. atleast i dont have a gaint gut like most peoples and im proud cuz even tho i admit to being a bit too skinny & i shud gain a LITTLE weight just fo health reasons but other then that ima stay skinny forever. for some reason being fat is hot now so i guess im never gunna be hot lmaoo. well yeah i think thats pretty much it. if someone comments about my wieght ill comment on something fucked up bout you. no ones perfect so no one has a right to judge my body as being wrong cuz im pretty sure that person isnt perfectly shaped so thats dumb.

oh! and just in case people get offended by it, well thats your problem
but if your one of my close friends i didnt right this to target you, its just saying how i feel cuz you know i love you guysz :]