Wishing String

"let go when you're hurting too much, give up when love isn't enough, and move on when things are not like before. Because the only sensible way to live in this world is without rules."

-Unknown

okayy so theres this secret that i have, its not much of a secret just a little habit that i started awhile ago. its really silly but its kinda fun i guess :] i have this string and i call it my wishing string and i always tie it to some place on my body. (when im wearing uniiform it goes around my tummy, when im in jeans it goes around my thigh, when im wearing i dress it goes around my chest, etc.) well i change the colors and the string has a wish on it and i wear the string until the wish comes true. its kinda like a promise i guess. i just think its kinda like...a little wish i can carry around with me.

on a more important note i been thinking alot lately. things just happen ya know? randomly like i sed in a pervious bloq life isnt based on fair and unfair if that was true no good person wud ever die right? well my great grandfather passed away on monday and at first i didnt really think much of it but on thursday i cudnt even go to skewl, i was sad. but i went 2 church wiff ashley today and it was really fun but it aso made me think about how to make the most of things

ashley was telling me, alot and we been hanging alot lately and it just shows me how surprising people can be. and i was thinking that i cant love anyonee anymore because everyone i've ever loved has taken advantage of me. even my "friends" so forget it i guess. i dont fully love, trust, or care about anyonee. cuz the only person das gunna be around forever for me is ME so im the only person i can trust. so yeah das it, i forgive but ima never forget and EVERYONE i know has lost my respect.

Xoxo <3

Blow Out The Candles..

"The thing is, we are all a little damaged. Some of us hide it better than others, but on some level we are all torn up. We take it out on others & go through life carrying it all with us. We will end up damaging someone else & most of the time we wont even notice. Or bother to care because we are busy with our own little disaster. & That my friends, is what we call life."

-Unknown.

Oh my gosh ! im finally 15 soooo i figure it would be nice to write a blog about how i feel this VERY moment lol. If you havent already noticed, my quote is quite a bit longer then it usually is ! that is becausee this is a special blog. About change (obviously). I'm not going to say i know everything about change but i have seen alot of it happen to people. sometimes for the better and sometimes for the worse.

Sometimes i feel like i dont know people anymore. like i miss so many people that i used to know. i was uh...looking through my 5th grade yearbook and i was looking at andy, taylor and everyone else i was such good friends with. and how i dont even know anything about them now. and it just makes me think...whats gunna happen. i mean right now i have such great friends like ysancis and florida and melissa but in like 10 years ? when im in paris, or ysancis is in boston. will i ever see anyone again, or will everything changee. ?

But enoughh about that sad subject and more about my birthday! they say another year older another year wider and blah blah blah. But i dont feel any different ! lmfaoo OH okay let me tell yuh about my day. i woke up and went to skewl and it was so halarious. i got mad cards and balloons and lipgloss and blah blah blah. but at lunch kayleen and florida totally dictched me and i got SO mad. but when i went back to skewl wiff nina they surprised me with a cupcake with a candle and sang happy birthday to me! and it was so sweett ! and then they put icing in myy face.

THEN after skewl we went to brendas house. andd we got ice cream and pizza and watched a movie and did bloody mary in the bathroom where sam screamed her head off cuz it was so scary lmfaoo and they baked me a cake!! and it was so tasty and we watched the sadest movie cuza ermy and it made me cry. but ysancis had to leave and it was sad but it was like the best birthday ever cuz we was all just buggin out in brendas house till 8:00 and i got home SO late which pissed off my mother! oh and they smushed cake all over my fucking faceee !

so over all i had a fantabiulous birthday and i got loads of cute stuff and yeah so i was thinkin even if things do change ima always have my friends. so no matter what even if its amillion years from now i can cell up sam or ysa and see them in a secound! or like 6 hours...since ima be in paris lmfaooo :]

So das it, 2 fingers;;* peacee <33